Bla Bla Bla

i hate you

2009-02-10T11:52:00.000-08:00

damn...is f***ing 4am in the morning...
and i was woke up by mosquito...

........=.= dunno why recently my house is full of mosquito...ish ish ish
i was having fun in my dream...when this evil little insect come near my ear and created the world most annoying sound...buzzz buzz buzz...

and now i was woke up by it..sitting in my room waiting to crushed them in my palm...so far i killed one..wahhaha..dunno still got how many..

and im so sleepy...tml early class again..thanks to you mosquito...i will panda tml

i serioudly dun unnderstand why god created this evil insects... all it brings are troubles...and i hate you...mosquito.!!! dissapear in my room before i crush all of you...><

Coz i had a bad day...

2009-02-07T07:56:00.000-08:00

another bad day...ish ish ish..
today my luck all gone...T.T
but quite fun...weird me..

ok it all started when i want to get my hair cut at e-gate...
go i went...driving driving...din pay attention ...by the time i realized i was heading to the penang bridge with doesn't allow any TURNING BACK..!!!!! OMG!!!
so so is a straight road all the way up to bm...hahhaa swt man....
ok thats not it... half bridge.. see see the oil needle pointing at ....E...WTH!!!
okok no panic no panic...no light yet still can still can...
then suddenly my eye catch something....[ pushing balik to pg]
wahahhaa ya ya ya...turn in turn in...
but sht that sign ....make me turn a whole round and back to the same place....@$!!%#%
no oil no oil...okok...no choice go straight up again and
stupid now got...pushing balik to georgetown??..
hmm ok trust it again and turn in
and guess wat?...now i noe how to go to autocity...waahaha...
pumped my oil and headed back...kekekkee

so i reach e-gate at last..phew...go up and thinking finally can get my hair done..
go in...the receptionist ask me...who i wan?...
since got extra money i choose senior stylist...but she came back and told me...why not choose pro stylist means taukeh...okok...extra 20...

then she came...not a polite welcoming face but the taukeh chiun face..okok nvm
i said i wan change style mayb cut shorter or wat..
she flip my hair here and there..
then said no no no..bla bla bla all the theory which i blur...
then i ask n ask and she keep saying no this no that..haiz pek cek..hmm

nvm nvm.. i said since u so good u do la watever u want..then she said ok..
and start cutting...
half way she cut...said aiyo...ntg much to cut wor...WTF..WTF.. now u say ntg to cut..!!!!!!!!!!!!!
nd tell me to come back faew months later and she will do for me...u wish la i will come back...

so i waste my money go n cut a hair that look excatly the same like before...and is not cheap ok not cheap NOT CHEAP...arghhhh...

not happyily i went down ready to go back...when i realized i left my hp thr..T.T..why so bad luck????
sigh go up n take, so pai sei coz everyone in the shop was looking at me with a kind of face that soon i walk out...they will start laughing..
ish ish ish..
so much for my day....
the worst thing is my hair still looks the same....arghhhh...
ah b gonna laugh me...T.T

i'm back

2009-02-03T08:45:00.001-08:00

i love this pic so much..the sky is damn nice

hey guys...hahaa i'm back from india...wohooo...
haha i noe i noe...i din update my blog for so long..
pai sei la...still no time or no inspiration?...haha
i will blog soon bout my trip as i settle my life back after disconnect from the world for whole week..hahaa..^^

so be patient...lol...

day out

2009-01-23T08:29:00.000-08:00

finally i get to hang out with my gal Jo ...
we haven't go out shopping together for so long...T.T
and yet we had so much fun that day...^^
try lots of dress and haha just let the pic do the talking.

country gal style...love it but too exp...SADDDDDD

another one...hahhaha

beach style...yohooo...
next time upload more...run out of time coz i will be flying off pg tml...T.T

go where??...guess and see??..
china??? nope
australia?? nope
japan?? nope....but i dream

all no, then is where???.....ok guys i will be going to INDIA!!! ya...india

FAQ...
1. Are u kidding me?? ..nope i'm not...i'm serious...^^
2.why??? coz my parents wan to go pray pray
3.why during CNY?? becoz there's no better timr for this...T.T

so ya....i will be celebrating my CNY in india with indians..how cool is that??...lol

BYe byE !!!
all my frens....must MISS ME K??? coz i will be missing u all a lot..muak...will be back on next monday..^^ see u then...

last HAPPY CNY TO ALL...

TIRED.....

2009-01-17T09:14:00.000-08:00

Saturday, a day which most ppl are happy about it but not me coz I HAVE TO WORK....damn today woke up so reluctantly and drag myself to sunshine square.. due to my laziness i'm late ...aiks...pity pity....

then bla bla bla..same old shit...went through the whole routine again...but something good happened ....followed by the bad..=.-

Good news - finally got promotion d...is selling at price 0.99..wahhaha * yes* .................
Bad news - no stock....%R&^$&%&^ wtf....sale onli no stock???? * dun play with me la god* T.T left pineapple mango and lychee gt stock...T.T

haiz luck still bad.....

so i was force to let ppl taste some drink which then i have to tell them no stock d....@.@ ...WTH is this?? in the end i get scolded by all the customer..aiyo aiyo they dun understand d...T.T

but at least today sale quite ok ..thanks to one man..* dunno from wat country d* i can't communicate with him... he shows 2 to me with fingers * the peace sign* lol but i dunno 2 carton or 2 can?? so i kesi kesi take 2 carton put in his trolly...wahhahaa he look shock at first but accepted....YIPEE summor is pineapple ...wahahhahaa...felt abit sorry for him but who cares...la la la...^^

oh ya...my parents come visit me...and i met a lot of anuty which they know me and i dunno who the hell are they?..lol lol my bad my bad... ahhahha

last but not least...TIRED TIRED and tml another day to go...hope tml some guy come and buy all my drink...wahhaha* dreaming*

broken..

2009-01-12T07:50:00.000-08:00

it's been a long time since i blog about anything...

no mood to do anything...it's been awhile that i haven't really smile from my heart...T.T
things are getting worst and worst....

i think i had the worst day last saturday....which was the day i had

big fight with mum + serious fight with ah b + start working = vivian dying inside..T.T

two fight happened side by side...OMG!!! i seriuosly are dripping down tears when i'm doing my sampling ...* no wonder sale so bad* hahhaha

i forget how much tears i shed for the last two days , maybe could drown my own room??...
but luckily things had calm down for now...and thanks to simon that support me through all this...xoxo..^^

sigh i'm so so so tired inside..my heart is so weak now that any little thing can totally crush it.

haha oh ya...my tv break down also...i wonder what's next????

but no matter what happen i will still go through it with a smile...^^

stresssssssss

2009-01-05T07:32:00.000-08:00

Today, the start of my new semester in inti. At first i'm quite excited and happy to go back to coll.. but today choosing the subject give me a big headache and seriously i'm so stressed up ...

Ya ya, biotech is something that i'm interested in but when i saw the list of the subject that i need to take up...i almost went out of breath..damn is was alll chmistry, biology and FFFFF calculus... all is so hard for me...damn why my road is so hard??...i dun mind the bio la..but why the math??..and most of all is chmistry????? it should be bio wat since the name BIOtech...hmmm
i have no confidence that i'm able to go through all this....i hate it..

The thought of changing my major keep appearing in my mind...i'm not a smart ass wit high IQ..but just a normal brain and my brain cannot process math at all...all the number means ntg to me...and i need physics also...haiz i wan to cry d...T.T

Sigh all of this is pulling my motiation deeep down the hole..ya i know it sound stupid to even be stress bout something that haven't occurs yet...but my heart is like dying and i seriously moody...damn..!!!!!!!!

i feel like cursing...&^&^*^&*&^*)_)_$%#
everthing is just so wrong...is wrong is wrong but what is the right??
damn my cgpa is like shit ...or is a shitty person shit..lol???..
is that a right decission??... to drag urself over all this ??

my mind is in a state that only negative thoughts appearing..and i fail to convert it into positive...failure?..useless??..yaya whatever...

p.s just ignore this post..i just wan to scream in my post..

2008 -2009

2009-01-01T12:41:00.000-08:00

So fast 2008 is over...i dun wan i dun wan..i will be older...damn...but i have too...T.T

2008 was a wonderful year for me, i make a big decision in the begining of 2008 , which was to start a new course in inti coll. i was wondering back then is that a correct choice but now i know and i'm proud to say that is a right choice and i didn't regret about it..^^ yipeeeee

Meet some wonderful friends in inti...first and most beloved joleen, hahaha we stick together since the day we met..don't we?

still rmb this? our very first pic...haha love u always and thanks for making my life in coll full with colors and crazyness...la la la

Coll life is fun and full wit memories, a lot of ups and downs but that's the only thing that making it interesting... but i don't remember studying...hahhaa guess i played too much..lol lol but i can;t resist myself....lol and of coz results...........(no comment)................. dot dot dot....^^

next climax in 2008 is meeting ah b...hmm is so weird and so strange that we can even be holding hands right now...lol but he brings lots of happiness to me..esp in langkawi * god i love that place*..^^ is nice to have him around ...^^ love

our very first pic..^^

so overall , 2008 was a great year to me and i hope 2009 is a great year also but there's some feelings telling me that 2009 won't be that great...coz is time to settle down and plan for our future no more parties like no tomorrow...* thinking too much??* or is the mood that every grown up is giving me?..the recession look...=.= haha

my resolution for 2009?...i have to move out from my shell and be more independent....yea! wish me luck..i will keep this post as a reminder...^^

again... is god damn #@$#@$#@ 2009 already...lets start our new journey... go go go no more turning back...see u next year on another post about my 2009..^^

last night of 2008

2009-01-01T11:13:00.000-08:00

31st dec of 2008, last night of 2008, NEW YEAR EVE

hohoho....i had a great night with ah b...started with a dinner at TGI friday...but is on my treat becoz i lost on a silly football bet with ah b long time ago...i vote for chelse i think...damn damn damn..i won't support u again chelsea..T.T but the food was damn nice...*saliva drooling*

after that we wonder around QB ..but pity me i purposely wear a taller heal so that mayb there's a chance i can see the artist on the stage later * dreaming*

next stop, the concert ...so we move our way up to a nice spot for ah b because no matter where i stand i still see nothing..T.T sigh with the help of the heel also nothing...WTF am i that short?????...but nvm i saw a lot of ppl have the same situation as me..wakakkaa...blek..

Saw bosco, danny wen li ming, henry, orange, and more .. i only can see through the big screen..T.T not fair ah b saw the real one...advantage of tall ish ish ish and i keep thinking why am i here?...is like watching TV at home...but with crowded ppl , painful sole and rude auntie keep pushing here and there, then turn to u like ntg happend...f***ing hate them....GTFO!!!!!

he's the spotlight of the night , he makes lots of girl crazy bout him...but not me...lol..too bad... i still love andy lau...hahha and if u wan see him dance...tell me i send u the video...quite funny..

i'm already sweaty and tired waiting for that only moment and finally........3,2,1, HAPPY NEW YEAR.... boom poom bang...fireworks flying up the sky...lol..the beautiful 8 mins as we wave goodbye to 2008...

event after this is only one word...JAM JAM JAM and more JAM...hahhaa...spent nearly 2 hours at QB roof top wit a nice view of pg and a cooling wind with ah b..not bad ma...lol..

lastly thanks ah b for the wonderful night...love u^^

mummy birthday

2008-12-30T12:03:00.001-08:00

29th of dec, my mummy b'day...hehe
at first we planed to go eat mam mam and celebrate but my bro is going back to kl...*ish ruined my big meal* so we ended up with a simple celebration at home...

present from me?? thought wan to buy something but again no car...damn!! so again i made her a card...but i did one mistake by choosing green color as the base which make the card look like a hari raya card....hahahhhaha my bad my bad...^^

the cake of the night...^^ quite nice..yum yum

happy b'day to u...happy b'day to u...happy b'day to my mama...happy b'dayyyyyyyy to UUUU!!

hehe my parents..they look so happy...love both of u muchhi muchhi....

once again wish u a happy birthday mum and hope u stay happy and healthy always..muacks

C.A.G.E.D

2008-12-30T10:50:00.000-08:00

i was so bored arghhhhhhhhhhhh........life with no car suck to the max...i'm like a bird in a open cage but my wings are tied up... wanted to fly so badly but just can't do it...ish ish ish... when only my mum's car can be discharge from the hospital...T.T

so what i was doing ???
- wake up
- eat
- sleep
- watch drama * finished all my drama..T.T*
- sleep
- eat
- and THINK!!!!!

i have no life....why?..why?...why?
i'm so bored i don't even wanted to blog...hahahaa...
but its ok la...at least i can have a nice rest before welcoming 2009... wohoo wohoo is 2009 already...and i'm old...damn damn damn..

ok back to the thinking part...i'm actually thinking of cutting my hair...should be done by now if i have that car...T.T haizzzzzzzzzz .. my plan is to look different before going back to coll...but now guess the only choice is stick to the old me...T.T....and delayed it until CNY...kekekeke

second thing that keep poping out in my mind is about my future...too much to think and too much to decide...which i seriously hate thinking about it so much...but i have too come up with a decision soon...but but still got some time so........................ lets forget about all the problems and

CELEBRATE NEW YEAR....

VIVIAN ME MYSELF IS WISHING ALL MY FRIENDS AND LOVED ONE..A GREAT HAPPY NEW YEAR...AND WISH 2009 IS A GREAT YEAR FOR ALL OF US...!!! LOVE YA

down down down we go...

2008-12-26T11:44:00.000-08:00

Dunno why lately i'm so unlucky...i guess is my time to get abit down after all the up...sigh
since 23rd of dec, my mum get into a little accident...things starting to go down..

All the plan i've planned didn't happen and things that i never plan keep popping out.. sigh dunno what to do...just hope all the unhappy things pass faster ...^^

My feelings are quite messy and complicated...moody and moody....tonight again another moody night ....

i need hunggie....^^

random...

2008-12-21T09:56:00.000-08:00

yesterday was a fun day yet so tired...i start my day with only 2 hour slept..OMG!! my insomnia problem is getting more and more serious..maybe its time to try some sleeping pills..
or anyone of u have any good idea to make someone sleepy??..

Morning...sunshine sunshine
woke up at 9am...straight to redbox with bunch of old friends...jelin, lili, liwen, maymay and jitkim. having cough can't sing...T.T saddddddddddddd... but overall quite fun..

Afternoon...tired tired
continue my shopping, wanted to buy some x'mas gift but no luck again..sigh.. but i saw someting rare...

yes it is...POWER RANGERS...muahahhahhaa...i dunno why i'm excited bout it..kakkaa..i was jumping up and down there like a kiddo..and ah b ignore me..T.T swt =.=....^^ continue walking and walking and went back at 5pm...i'm so tired i feel like dying...i drop like a dead body by the time i reach my bed...

Night....
woke up after my little nap and straight to my best fren chai chai sister wedding..ntg much happen coz she was so busy snapping photo but it was nice to meet up wit her..miss her so muchhh.....seriously i came back quite energectic so weird..

and its time to so " tang yuan"..kekek i wan do purple and orange one...but papa dun give..T.T colorful better ma..rite?

happy 冬至 everyone( dunno called what in eng) ,XOxo

Dilemma

2008-12-21T03:40:00.000-08:00

me vs parents

lately my parents keep forcing me to do things that i really don't like, really really don't like. but to them as usual is all for my own good. i did once because wanted to make them happy but seriously i don't feel happy or nice doing it.

so what should i choose?...keep doing it to make them happy but sacrifice my own happiness? bare in mind that is a long term decision so i may be hook up in this for the coming years.

solution 1 - discuss with them
FAILED - they still think is good for me and i'm so stupid not doing it. and they still not happy about my decision

solution 2 - keep talking to make them understand
FAILED - my mum will go on with her lecture and said that they want me to do something also i cannot ...T.T and things become more ugly..

so now the dilemma comes in the picture, how should i choose??
if you're in my shoe what is your pick??
pls enlighten me..XOxo

freedom

2008-12-19T10:23:00.001-08:00

life is so boring after i came back from kl, thanks to the germs i collected there but TODAY....
freedom...at last..!!!!!!
i have been staying in my warm little nest for for ...so lonGGGG that there's even spider web all around me...kekee

*consequences of boring*

after saving my energy for a whole week and desperately wanted some fast foods melts in my mouth ...i went shopping wit ah b...where else but that only QB...

* before going out...^^*

so he picked me up around 6pm and straight to * ma tong tong* mcd if you dun understand..kaka i finally tasted some fries and burger...wahhaha...the moment i put that fries in my mouth, it explode BOOM!!! and the oily potatoes mix with the salt melted in my mouth...oh god i love my life...* i know is too much =)* although i love it so much i can't even finish the fries, burger nor the drinks..T.T mayb my appetite still not yet fully recover..

p.s don't ever try to tell me bout the fats nor how bad is fast food...doesn't work for me...^^

after that, as usual is shopping time!!!!...dunno why ah b is so into polo tee nowadays so we stop by padini and kekeke..

*i might fall in love with green...*

sadly we din buy this but ended up buying another one that makes both of us regret ..T.T *cheated by padini* ish ish ish
guess today shopping fairy didn't sprinkle the magic powder on us...nvm as ppl said every failure make us closer to success

so i'm looking forward to next shopping attempt..!!!

shopping fever is on...XOxo

i Love simple...

2008-12-17T09:54:00.001-08:00

ok, well first n foremost i'm a emo fag...so u can predict all my post mostly will be emo unless my life is so perfect i wanna kiss everyone...hehehe

ok enough crap, recently my life is like riding a roller coaster with a spoilt track and i'm hanging up and down in the sky...* drama queen blek i noe*..so i did wat i'm good at...THINK..and keep thinking so i wanna share abit bout my new found motto..

SIMPLE...simple is what i need in my life now and only that will save me. Save me? from wat?...hmm have u ever think that there's a little notty beast in our mind that always stir things up and turns a simple thing into a complicated thing? * guess ur reaction is like WAT???*^^

but to me,things always start in such a simple way, friendship... it starts with a simple smile and it grew into a laugh , so simple and so nice, but then things started to get complicated? the laughter slowly fades away and things will never be the same again. ?WHY
WHY?? it had to turn complicated?...can't it just stay simple as how it was? or is just our human nature to make things complicated?..

i specially dedicated this post to all my lovely friends and to those who have left some footstep in my heart, i wish that we all can stay the way we are or we used to be and remain it as simple as we can.

spread the love , XOxo